I need to be different.

I need to trust people less.

I need to hate people more.

I got drunk and had sex with a dude I don't even like and I don't know how to feel about myself but I feel as though I need a change and I need to stop having sex with strangers and I need to be better and I need to somehow be more than what I am and it's a hard thing to do but I know I have to do it or else what will I become.